Martin left for training camp with his team this morning. That means home alone for the first time since Morris arrived and it´s funny how I for the first time feel like I´m the lucky one.
Dropping him off at the train station was weird and not like any time before. To kiss me good bye is routine. But this time was different… and I´m happy it isn´t me leaving for 10 days.
As a rider I was always a bit jealous about the pro men. I used to think that it´s not fair how easy it is for them to move on with their life while still being active. They can start a family and have their wife’s at home raising the kids while they keep doing what they do…
I know some women give birth during their career and I really do admire them. That has never been an option for me as I can´t see how I could combine those two. Maybe it would be different if I was doing a more individual sport like cross country skiing or mtb where you can “be your own team” and travel the world and have your baby with you?!
I was very determined to finish my career before starting this next chapter and I´m very glad I made that decision.
What I understand now is that I had no reason to be jealous of the pro men because it isn´t any easier for them. Being the mum or dad doesn´t matter, it´s never easy to leave the little one. They grow up so fast and by leaving, if only for some days, you risk missing out of the first smile, the first step, the first words or just as simple as the smell of their skin.
Martin got almost 4 weeks at home from Morris birth and that has been perfect for our little family. But to be home for so long while the season is rolling has also been weird for him and towards the end he started to get restless. He loves his job and couldn´t wait to get back into it, at the same time realizing he will miss Morris.
He is already the best dad in the world and what´s good with him leaving is that he will be back soon!
Home alone for the first time won´t last long as my parents are visiting.
3230 gram of love.
Born on 11th of April 2018.
Eight days ago a little boy entered our life and changed it forever.
Never before have I felt so much love and now I finally understand what all mum’s are talking about.
My water broke at 2:15 in the morning on the 11th and at 14:37 a healthy little boy came to the world.
My wish for a normal birth changed when he choose to lye bum down and c. section felt like a safer option for the baby.
So after checking with ultrasound at arrival in the hospital to see if he had turned around or not (which he hadn’t) we just had to wait for a gap in the schedule.
When my water broke contractions started and they were coming steady every 9-10 minutes, being around 1 minute long. As the hours passed by they got stronger and at noon I couldn’t ignore them anymore. As they also started to come closer I rang my ”help button”.
That speeded it up a bit and suddenly it was my turn…
To get his little body on my chest after carrying him for 9 months was the strongest feeling I have ever had. Everyone have told me that this will be your long wished (and missed) gold medal in a big championship.
I say it’s way beyond that!
I look down at this little mixture of Martin and myself and the whole world stops. All that’s important is him and the love I feel is endless and it grows stronger for every minute that pass.
Morris, You are better than Gold and I love you to the moon and back!
An update about the Winner from my “Gender & Weight competition” is coming soon, so stay tuned!
Exactly 14 days left of my pregnancy today and never before have I been so emotional.
Tears have been streaming down my face for most reasons. Soon our littleone is here, and it is very hard to imagen but for every day it´s getting more real!
How to give birth has not been an easy decision. As you know our baby is lying bum down, making it a little more complicated. It´s still possible for a normal birth but it all depends on when and how it´s starting. I have had a really good meeting with the doctor and feel like I have all the facts that I need.
Whether it will be a c. section or not, time will tell and to make it a bit exciting I thought that I would put up a competition for you all;
Guess the babys gender and weight at birth in my comment field!
The one that comes closest will be the winner of a goodie bag from me 🙂
My little Buddy has chosen to lie bum down…
Definitely not my wish and I still cross my fingers for him/her to turn around before it´s time.
Clock is ticking though and due date is coming closer pretty fast so we just have to wait and see.
Since my placenta is on the front we can´t even try to make an external turn by pushing my stomach. So, either he/she has to turn it self or bum first it is!
Decision has to be made whether I go for a normal birth or caesarean section.
Not an easy decision and both options has their plus and minuses… I´m no expert at all in this and not knowing what to go for and not know the definite outcome is really hard. I have never been good in making decisions (can´t even choose what to eat from the menu at the restaurant) and this decision is a very difficult one.
Before I was looking forward to the challenge of giving birth and suddenly it gives me a littlebit of stomachache…
What doesn’t give me stomachache is the fact that very soon I will be holding my Buddy in my arms.
It is and has been a long wait but now we´re almost there and I can´t wait!