Martin left for training camp with his team this morning. That means home alone for the first time since Morris arrived and it´s funny how I for the first time feel like I´m the lucky one.
Dropping him off at the train station was weird and not like any time before. To kiss me good bye is routine. But this time was different… and I´m happy it isn´t me leaving for 10 days.
As a rider I was always a bit jealous about the pro men. I used to think that it´s not fair how easy it is for them to move on with their life while still being active. They can start a family and have their wife’s at home raising the kids while they keep doing what they do…
I know some women give birth during their career and I really do admire them. That has never been an option for me as I can´t see how I could combine those two. Maybe it would be different if I was doing a more individual sport like cross country skiing or mtb where you can “be your own team” and travel the world and have your baby with you?!
I was very determined to finish my career before starting this next chapter and I´m very glad I made that decision.
What I understand now is that I had no reason to be jealous of the pro men because it isn´t any easier for them. Being the mum or dad doesn´t matter, it´s never easy to leave the little one. They grow up so fast and by leaving, if only for some days, you risk missing out of the first smile, the first step, the first words or just as simple as the smell of their skin.
Martin got almost 4 weeks at home from Morris birth and that has been perfect for our little family. But to be home for so long while the season is rolling has also been weird for him and towards the end he started to get restless. He loves his job and couldn´t wait to get back into it, at the same time realizing he will miss Morris.
He is already the best dad in the world and what´s good with him leaving is that he will be back soon!
Home alone for the first time won´t last long as my parents are visiting.